Friday, July 25, 2014

2 years later....

Ahh, it's been a while since I've updated my blog.  So goes the life of a mom with 4 kids, 3 dogs, 1 cat and a husband.

Many apologize though, two years is far too long to wait between posts.

So here I sit pondering what to write.  I've been feeling the urge to write again for about two weeks now (honestly I didn't write sooner because I didn't want to have to deal with the whole "I forgot my password" mess.)  But it was remarkably easy to log back in.

Quick update:

Christian is 19 (almost 20) now.  He did his first year at Texas State, pledged to TKE fraternity and blossomed socially.

Bailey is 15 in Parkour (free running--think american ninja warrior) and wants to go into game design.

Aiden is in 12 a competitive gymnast (Level 5 as I type this) he loves it and is really doing great at it.

Jillian is 8 (for just a couple more weeks!) I can't believe she's going into FOURTH grade!!!  why does time fly by so quickly?  She's sweet, smart, shy and sassy.  I love them all to pieces.

Christian is currently out in Colorado visiting my brother, hoping to hone in on what he wants to do for a living.

We've moved again (since our last post).  Same town, new house, I love it.

As I said before, I've felt moved to write, however I'm not sure where to begin, or what to write.  Forming a post out of nothing at all is a bit tricky.  I've had a lot of things on my mind lately though.

I'm at a crossroads on if I want to continue down the path I'm on being a preschool teacher.  I love doing that but I'm not sure it's where I'm supposed to be.  I think it's time for me to head back to school, take some classes, move on.  Which of course is a bit intimidating.  I just turned 40 this March and I still have no idea what I want to do when I grow up!  I feel like a bit of a failure in this area.  By 40 I should have my ducks in a row, I should have a long time ago, but I can't seem to get them gathered up in a pile, let alone line them up in a row.  So while I think going back to school is the right thing and I'm eager to go forward with that...I stop and hesitate because what would I go back for??  I have NO IDEA!!

Here's what I know:


Here's what else I know:

I'm burnt out on kids.

So my problem is sitting in my brain festering....which direction do I go?  Do I go with what I know or can you teach an old dog new tricks?  Can you start a brand new career path, have zero experience, be trained and enjoy it, at 40?  Or is it even worth spending the money on?  We're already sending one child to college right now, the added expense of putting another on through a few classes....Hummm.  I'm just at a crossroads.

The other less life changing, but still important, decision I'm tossing around in my head is my hair!  For the first time in my life I think I may color it...darker...maybe add some red.  Now there are those that color their hair every color of the rainbow and have zero issue with it.  Me though...I've had the same hair (style, color etc..) for approx: 30 years.  Some times I'll cut my bangs then let them grow only to cut them again.  But chopping my hair, changing my style?  I've done that twice that I can remember in my life.  Once in  6th grade (horrible!  you'll never see pictures!)  and once after I had Bailey.  Other than that's it's been long, blonde and sometimes with bangs sometimes without.  So for me, changing hair color is pretty darn drastic.

So what have we taken away from this post?

Janelle can't make a decision.

That's the cliff notes version of all that up there.

If anything changes I'll keep you posted.  :)

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